This past week has been filled with so many ups and downs; from being pretty low after what felt like all the 'important' things in life were falling apart (job, home...) and then spending Saturday with my beautiful and inspiring friend Chloe, sat in a wonderful pub in Brixton while she sold some lovely little diaries, purses and address books.
Since moving further into London, finishing University and being dumped into the 'real' world, it's a bit of a shock to say the least. At Uni I had my loan, my bursary and a part time job which usually took up at least 20 hours of my week. So money was never really a problem; I had enough to buy some nice things, drink coffee whenever I wanted, and buy most of the materials that I needed. I had a studio, I lived in a cute suburban town with friends nearby.
Suffice to say that all those lovely things changed when I moved to New Cross Gate, and the last three months have been somewhat of a struggle. But these last few days I can start to see some sunlight and have become inspired, thinking about all of the things that I want to do to make me happy. I changed my job (although the first two weeks were very hard and every other day I thought about going for lunch and never returning), I want to start having exhibitions again, and I want to carry on making nice things and selling sweet things at various craft fairs.
So- this week I have been experimenting with different things to sell at the fairs, I will be a knitting commuter and I will start a new log of inspiration, continue reading medical books and art theory and try to drown myself in things that make me happy.
First experiment with Cupcake Jars:

These are layers of cake and frosting in a jar which you can take away and eat with a spoon!
They need some work so that the jars are filled and don't look so pooey inside. They taste good though! I made one with chocolate cake and cinnamon icing, and another with chocolate cake and peanut butter icing. My favourite is peanut butter, oh my god that icing tastes good!
Another exciting thing that I did this week, was buy MAKE UP! I had a brief fling with make up when I was 14, which lasted a couple of years before I started college, let my arse hang out of my jeans, stopped brushing my hair and all make up went out of the window. A few years ago I introduced mascara back into my 'beauty routine' and two days ago I went to the wonderful B Never Too Busy To Be Beautiful and pleaded for HELP! The amazing girl applied various creams and potions to my face, explaining how each product worked and how I could apply it, and helped me select the most important products. I bought tinted moisturiser, eyeliner, lipstick and cleanser. It felt strange at first, and when I looked in the mirror I thought I looked like a drag queen, but I am getting used to it and it's kind of fun! I even want to buy blusher and powder and concealer!
I'll let you guys know when I get some dates organised for craft fairs, and update with my sweet experiments!